Life Gets In The Way...

It's been a long while since my last post, and as the title of this suggests, Life just kinda got in the way. I have gone through some things that have made me a bit introspective so I have not been in the mood to share as of late.



Back in August, my Grandmother died. It wasn't entirely unexpected, as she was 93, but it still took a lot out of me. I have many fond memories of my Gram and loved her a lot. I miss her all the time.

Losing someone really makes you think about a lot of things, some great memories, and some scary stuff (mortality, death.) I think it's harder to deal with the older you are because your view on your own mortality comes into perspective. When your 20, 20 years down the road seems like an eternity...when your 40 it seems like every year goes by too quickly, and it's one year that you'll never have back.

Death also makes you examine the other relationships in your life, and think about investing more in those that matter and maybe remove those that do nothing but drain you. But what do you do when one of the draining relationships is one you also feel obligated to remain in?

More to come...

Latest Poll

The latest poll had a whopping 2 votes-1 for Life and 1 for Sports. I think I'll take on sports next since the last post I wrote about the meaning of life. It may take a couple of days to formulate what I want to write since I am now back to work-YUCK!

Blogging Poll-The Meaning of Life

Hi All~



The winning blog choice the first time around that you want to see me blog about is The Meaning of Life. Pretty big topic, so this should be interesting.



I would consider myself a "deeper" person. I think a lot about the meaning of things, and sometimes I wish I didn't-it keeps a person up at night sometimes! That being said, no matter how much I think about something that is deep, I usually end up going round and round and not really coming to a solid conclusion. I guess that's ok, but being slightly OCD, I really prefer having things wrapped up in a neater package and getting an end result. Regardless, I will give it a shot and will start with the process of elimination.



The meaning of life is not:
The biggest house
The best car
Being neat and tidy
Having the most fashionable clothes
Eating at the best restaurants
Traveling the world
Having everything you could ever want
Having a million dollar job
Having the best looking lawn


All of the above things are nice, and they contribute to the quality of ones life depending what you put importance on. They even give a life a "type" of meaning, but none are the meaning of life. I think the meaning of life is different to each person. It depends on your upbringing, where you are in your life, what you feel is important. I think above all else, the meaning of life to me at this point in my own life, is to love and be loved. To give the most of yourself each and every day, no matter how big or small. To do things in your life that use your talents, and unique personality and outlook.

That's my two cents for now. Thanks to whoever is listening.

Best Birthday Ever!

Had a very nice surprise party last night! 30+ friends, food and drink...just a great time. All of these adventures for my 40th birthday and the actual day isn't even here yet! I have really had a blast and am blessed to have such caring and wonderful people in my life.

It just doesn't get much better...

It's not even my Birthday yet and my best friend in the world has really pulled out all the stops already. First, I get a wonderful new laptop that I have been using daily. Then, we go away to see the Red Sox play in Fenway and I get birthday wishes on the big board. And tonight, thought I was going to the casino in the American falls, but instead we went over to the Canadian side because I got surprise tickets to see Cyndi Lauper and Rosie O'Donnell. Finally, Rosie herself wishes me a happy 40th birthday during her stand up! I am very lucky to have such a wonderful person in my life!

Boston Terrier "Swinging" (The Adventures Of Rex #7)

Too Old?

So, turning 40 in a week and have been struggling with it for a number of reasons. I can't seem to rectify the number of years that have gone by so quickly. My child is now a man, and I haven't done nearly enough things in my 40 years.

Today I am deciding to live the "second" half of my life a little differently. There will be no second guessing, no fear of failure, and I am going to finally start "living out loud!"

But, being the slightly OCD personality that I am, a list and plan is a must. Now, I just need to get that procrastination under control and leave the computer alone once in a while so I can experience life more!

My list and plan will be forthcoming....any suggestions are welcome.

Beautiful Day...

It's a beautiful day here in NY...the type of day that makes you feel you can do anything.

Hi All~



Brand new today to this blogging thing, but felt I needed to do something new in my life. I am about to turn the big 4-0(don't you hate when people say that "the big 4-0??) and I really felt like something creative and different had been missing from my life, or was here and left at some point. You will all notice that one of my biggest flaws in writing is the propensity to have run on sentences, but if that's the worst I do then I think I'll be ok.